Ive planted the seed,now I have to let it grow!

The hardest thing as a mother is to let your children go! I know what my heart says and what my mind says! But is it what God says? I have to let him make the best choice for him! Pray for me!

Keep Duane in your prayers this week,he has to go back to work on Monday. He is trying to prepare himself mentally!

totally not about Duane!!!

So with all the Obama talk about speaking to the kids in school,what is your opinion??

Growing up so much!!

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Quiet days!!

Not sure what day we are on,but i can say that Duane does alot of sleeping! He usually has a little spark of energy in the morning than he crashes after for much of the afternoon!! I would love to be in his head and know and understand what he is thinking or feeling! If it were me I think I would be lost, so maybe thats how Duane feels!

Those of you that read my blog please keep us in your prayers concerning moving! That we will find a house that we can rent, our hope is for some with some land, but know that may not be Gods will for us! I am getting pretty stir crazy and Im ready to go!! Please pray for patience for me!

Thank you all my dear friends and family,

Day 3-5

I would say its going ok, Duane dear friend ( the one that was with him when he got shot) came to visit him today, Doug is on R&R. I think Duane enjoyed it. They will get to be together one more time before Doug leaves again for Afgan.

Tomorrow will be the first day that Duane will be left at home by himself! Ill be attending PWOC. I defently need some time to be with some friends I havent seen in a while!

Keep us in your prayers our paperwork should be ready for us to sigh!

Thank you Lord for blessing me in my life!

Angie

DAY 2

Seems to be going well,Duane went out to the store by himself!

Just a relaxing day!

Step by step we are healing!

Well today is day 1 of dr. ordered leave for Duane, at this current moment we are enjoying the day outside, Duane is tinkering on Justins car, im working on some info that ive heard that is for military spouse!

Its really nice seeing him up and off the couch!

Please remember our military wives and children today, so many of them go thru what I am,plus more!

Love to you all

God is Love

Angie

Chicken, I love chicken!

So this evening asfter a got the chicken baked I was told " I dont like Chicken" never been an issue before!

Just a new chapter in our lives!

So the boys and I had chicken, and he had a sandwich!

HELP!!

Party!

We attended a 1st birthday party last night for my dear friend Baby Anthony(monkey)

It was a great night! Duane went what was so great!

Before Iraq Duane and I went everywhere together! Now Im usually solo!

He set and talked to another soldier that has gone thru hard times too! There were sad moments but also laughter! It was nice seeing Duane help with things! But what broke my heart was before he would get up in those jumping castles with all the kids and play,not now but thats ok! The only that I can say is those little toot horns arent good! So they were taken away very quickly!

Life is good we have a great marriage,wonderful family and great friends! The best of all God is by our side!

prayer

I recieved a new book today that I ordered on my favorite site "Amazon"

Prayer the great adventure

David Jeremiah

I have been following a blog,the girl has been taking about prayer and this book,so im going to start reading it!

Just thought I would let you know!!

Got to chat with my dear sister in law tonight over the computer! I havent talked to her in a very long time! Keep our family in your prayer as I pray for healing!

Angie

“When we proclaim the truth, we should always keep in mind that it is God who changes minds and hearts, not any eloquence or persuasiveness that we possess. We mustn’t let fear or frustration keep us from being bold and loving in our proclamations. . . . we may never see the impact of our witness this side of heaven

I felt that I need to share this with you today!

May you use the words the way God calls you too!

I want no more wrinkles!

How funny this may sound but my wonderful husband went in 2 days ago and had 23 shots of botox in his head,yes I said botox!

We will know in 2-3 weeks if it worked! I pray it does!

His headaches are getting so bad that the shots at home are not working!

Im just afraid that I will get wrinkles and he wont! LOL!

Keep us in your prayers we are starting to make the transaction out of the Army!

Please pray for us a house close to the twins!

Bless everyone of you!

Angie

Prayers!

I have a few prayer request!

1.

My dear friend is dealing with the chance that her husband will be deploying to Afgan. This really became a shocker! They are trying to adopted baby Anthony!

2.

I have another dear friend that is worried about her husband that is in Afgan, he isnt dealing well mentally!

3.

Another friend is heart broken because of the choices that her daughter has made!

Lord,Please give them the peace that they need during this time!

Thank you for that peace!

Goals!

“I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus.”- Philippians 3:14

daily verse from Bible gateway

As a child this was one of the many verses that stood out to me,i remember that it was mainly used before a race,a game.

But, as an adult I read those words and what goes thru my mind is to be the mother and wife that God want me to be!

The last 2 weeks have been hard and how many times I wanted to throw up my hands and say Im tired! But as I face our new life the goal that God want me to press on towards is to keep my families eye on Christ! That we will win the prize when the Lord comes back!

FAITH

Hebrews 11:1 New International Version

By Faith

¹Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see.

My verse for today!

Faith,living everyday by faith,hope,love

What a week!!

Last Sat. we took a trip to the ER with Duane! Wednesday we took another trip to the ER! I hope that is our last!!

It has been a week for TBI and PTSD!!

Duane was taken off work on Tuesday because of it for 72 hours! Then on Wednesday he came to me and said his famous words " Angie I dont want to scare you, I just want you to know" When I hear those words I know we need to take action(ive only heard them 1 other time)

So I made a phone call and was told that we need to head to the ER! So off we went So after some major pain killer (i would have been dead) we still were not well!! So after many hours we headed home,than got 2-3 hours of sleep! we were back up at the dr at 8am. We did learn of some new treatments that I pray will help Duane. He came home with much more meds and also giving himself shots now! Today he got up and said "im going to clean the garage" Of course I said NO ,you need to rest an hour layer he was taking a nap!!

Thru all this im learning alot about my new husband and the new me! Life will never be the same for us and that ok! God is blessing us in ways that I would have never thought!

I have a wonderful family and friends!

If things are bad all I have to do is text and say we needs prayers now and I have them,in ways of prayers over text and text that just say praying for you all!

I even wonder what it would be life not to have Christ on our side,what do non-believers do when they are in crisis?? God, you are great!

A great thing!

As I have talked about in post before,Duane has found some peace in being around horses!

I have found a great organization that help people like Duane!

Please check it out!

http://www.pptrc.org/

We have an appt there on the 31st! We cant wait!

Love in Christ!

prayers!

Keep us in your prayers! Duane was told by the dr that he was sending him home for 3 days!

Down hill again!

Its just a blessed day!

Its after 9 pm here and I feel so tired that I really should go to bed, but instead I thought I would make a batch of cookies for our journey tomorrow!

Duane has had a night that is so hard for me to see.

The only way I can tell you is that he says my body wont work! Cyle and Codie helped him to the restroom, than into bed! It is so hard to see him this way! But this is a result of a very busy week at work for him!

But Im blessed to have him home with me and blessed that he choose me for his wife,blessed that he is alive!

Thank you Lord!

Different kinds of healing!!

So i sit and go thru the hundreds of pictures that I took over the 4th of July,I sit and think about healing. How God uses things to heal.

I can honestly tell you that healing is alive, after 3 years I watched my husband hurt,i mean really hurt both physically,mentally,and spiritually!

Over the weekend I saw his heart being healed!

How? A horse. My brothers horse.

I have heard that it truly works,I was at a radio broadcast for the military a few months ago,I met a lady that talking about how horses heal!

I can honestly now say that I witnessed it.God used that horse that day to help heal Duanes heart!

So after that is said I will be studying about healing, Thur Gods word,and how he uses think(like the horses).

If anyone has some in site please share!

Rhonda I need that CD!!

home and on the road!!

Duane is home from the 5 week stay in the hospital! If I had to descibe him now I would say on edge. He really wanted to see codie and cyle, so at this tome we are sitting in Goodland Ks,in the lobby of an Holiday Inn waiting for our room to be cleaned(its 11:20pm) We are learning so much 1> Duane doesnt do well at night driving(even me driving) i learned that while he was Iraq he was on the road at night,he had a driver and Duane had to watch everything around them IED,roadside bombs, light everything! So after dark is not good!! Before Iraq we would put this kids to bed in the car and off we would go 10-12 hours! Not now! We are learning and healing! Keep us in your prayers during this long weekend! Peace for Duane!

Are you scared to die?

Today I visited one of my dear friends on post.  WE were talking about this hole Jackson thing with dying.  In the conversation she was telling me that when her and her husband flies she get 2 separate tickets on 2 separate planes. In this conversation I learned that she was scared that they both would die, and who would take care of the kids!! So that was my chance to tell her how God would take care of her kids, How everything is in Gods timing. She believes in God and that's all!  So my challenge while I'm still here is to show her Gods love.

Update on my husband:

Hes coming home on Tuesday, he is healing,and I'm learning

We still have a long road, with some 2nd opinions with the traumatic brain injury.

After Duane was shot in Iraq I made a bag and put on it WE ARE SURVIVORS

I look at it and thank God that we are!!

things are looking good!

We visited Duane yesterday, he looks better than he has! I felt peace! Im sure that we are not out of the woods yet, but I see the light! The boys are leaving Sunday for boy scout camp,I will have some time to myself!  

Thanks to call who have prayed for our family! God is healing!

Just asking for prayer!

Its been a very bad day for Duane!

Yesterday I said goodbye to a very dear friend of Duanes who is on his way to another deployment. He was with Duane when he was injured in Iraq.  It brought back so many memories for me! I spent some time talking with his mother listening to her fears, remembering mine. His wife and brand new baby are strong, as this is her first deployment, but I know she will do fine!

She reminds me of myself of independancy and courage! 

God gives us all special gifts to be able to get thru life, as I look back thats what God gave me courage to get thru anything and to be able to stand tall when life is not tall! and independance to be able to go time with out my husband by my side both physically and mentally.

I will be praying for our friends during this time that they will be strong and take care of themselves both physically,mentally and spiritually.

I love you D and M and L

So amazing

Its so amazing what God does in our lives! He is working on Duane and I do see improvements, little ones but thats ok!!

I know and believe that God is placing very important people in my life right now! A very dear friend stopped by today and was telling me that she had lunch with a friend( I have meet her)

she told my friend that if I need someone that understands what Im going thru she would love to visit with me! Her husband also was injured in Iraq! Now thats awesome! I have my family and friends but no one that is living the same life as me! I pray that I can help her heal also!

God as also brought my best friend from high school back into my life! She is awesome I love seeing how God is using her! Also I love that she is so caring, understand ,loving ,Godly women!

Se has prayed with me and for me! Thank you!

The boys and I had a great day today! I love seeing them become Godly men!

Duane went into the hospital on Monday. 

Lord,

Im dancing with my father God in a field of Grace!!

Psalms 91:11-For he will order his angels to protect you wherever you go.

Thank you Lord for your protection over Duane and I. Heal out hearts.

WOW! Havent posted!!

I have been so busy learning my new macbook that I forgot I had a blog!!!!

LOL

God is in control!!!

5 day till Duane is suppose to go into the hospital for treatment! 

Lord you are in control! I give it all to you! 

You know the plan for our lives! Lord, I pray over him,to heel his heart and his mind!

Lord, I pray for Zacary for his teenage years to be glorified by you! Lord, He loves his music, I pray that he will serve you with it!

Lord,I pray for Skylar that he enjoys his life that he know that YOU are the one that created all of the rocks he loves!

Lord, I pray for Justin, Help him made the right choices for his life. That he will find peace!

Lord, I pray for Cyle, that we will look to you and know that you love him!

Lord I pray for Codie, that he will find you in his life I pray for his salvation to accept You in his life!

Lord, I pray for me, Give me peace and understanding! 

thank you for all things!

Amen

Peace!

Lord,

I pray for peace! I pray that you wrap me in your arms! I need to feel love!

Baggage,
Lord you know my baggage Help me let go of it this week!

Lord, Help me learn to Love the new him!

Amen

All Alone

Dear Lord,
Please be with him as I am away. Watch over his mind. Help him sleep peacefully. Give him patience with the kids Lord. Lord,I pray that hes finds peace in his heart,help him look towards you!
Lord,I pray that you will help me with understanding,right now Lord all I need is you!

Amen